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In response to all the comments--thank you all very much. They're helping me out... I'm still in somewhat of a funk, but I really appreciate the comments. I'll update when/if anything happens. Should also have some reviews up as soon as TMT decides to post them, as well as (maybe) some short essays on some songs I love. Thanks for sticking with me.

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To those following, sorry I've been neglecting the blog as of late. This semester's been rough so far, and I've never felt stuck in a place more transient than this. I'm in a poetry course, and really like the instructor. However, I don't feel like I'm learning anything, and have yet to write a poem I'm proud of. I'm sure I'll be able to scrounge up ten poems for my final portfolio, but I want something that I can feel satisfied with. My biggest problem with all this, of course, is that I don't put enough time into poetry. It's just so daunting, and I never know where to begin.

I guess what I'm getting at is... I don't even really feel like a writer anymore. I used to think I was fairly creative, and a good writer, but now I'm just not so sure. My sister Kaitlyn now seems to be the "writer" of the family, and will likely be remembered for it. That probably sounds very bitter, but I'm actually really glad that she's found and is cultivating something that she loves so much. I just feel that I'm kind of... overshadowed by her now. The only writing I seem to be doing anymore is criticism, analyzing somebody else's creative work. I myself haven't written an entire song (or poem, or story) in a very long time.

Sorry if this is a downer, but I'm just not feeling right lately. I spend a lot of time studying, and a lot more time idling at the keyboard, waiting for I-have-no-idea-what, wasting time and accomplishing nothing. I can't wait until March 2nd, and hate that I feel my future hangs in the balance. I'll receive an email that will determine the rest of my college career, and frankly, I've never been more scared. I don't feel like I was intended to be an English major, and am eager to set out on something new, something secure (ish), something more important than writing extensive words about why you should/shouldn't buy an album.

If you read this, thank you.
-Lukas